Wednesday, May 19, 2010

What should I write for the title.."The Dark Side of Me?"

You may be asking yourself who this is and why am I putting her picture in my page. This is a pink ranger from “Power Rangers” show. However, the purpose of putting this picture has more appropriate reason. She is one of my favorite childhood superheroes. Writing by Taylor K. had me thinking about this. He talked about his superhero, The Undertaker who is also a professional wrestler. When I was a kid, I was really obsessed with pink ranger. There was one time when I called Power Rangers info line. There, I had to answer questions about Power Rangers. Not knowing how long I took to call the number, I tried to answer questions after questions. To make the story short, father had to pay almost a hundred ringgit for the phone bills that month!

I love pink ranger very much. I love her. She seems very soft. I love the colour too. It suits my soul. But I think it doesn’t suit my skin. As I was thinking about superheroes, I started to reflect a little bit. And I asked myself why this was so. What is it about me that drew me to such fantastic superhero? Despite how pink ranger might appear in the show, there are reasons to why I adore her so much.

Well, not only she has moral figure but she has her own way of going about it. She has small figure which seems weak to many, but she is actually very strong. Her strength is shown physically as she battled with evil.

So in answering why I was so drawn to this pink ranger is due to two desires: morality and autonomous. While the former is of good and noble, the latter sounds completely evil. ‘Pink’ seems to me very fragile, delicate and weak. Ironically, the pink ranger I adore is a superhero. Even though she is pink, she brings herself so well that she saves the world. Most importantly, she is the master of her own body.

‘Morality’ and ‘autonomous’ belong to God, indeed. We follow only the righteousness and are our own masters who control ourselves from committing sins. As a Muslim, I’ve had to learn that the two elements are not mine. All my righteous acts that I am so proud of as a young woman, I now consider rubbish. I have to forget all that. God do looks at ones acts but the most important thing is the heart. And the truth is, all the righteousness that my pink ranger did is not really righteousness at all because it was judged by my self- interests. And as a Muslim, I now have to deal with the fact that true morality begins with fear of God and submission to His will. I remember one quotation saying that the true meaning of ‘morality’ is who you are or what you become when you are alone.

Have a g00d time, everyone! =) ~~